I am a slave. She rules me, and without her command, and her
breath of life, my creations are wearisome and fruitless toil, if indeed I am
able to put my hands to work at all. Inspiration, vision, magic – I don’t know
what to call her, my mistress. But she is cruel and inconstant.
A sampler quilt built around the traditional "Log Cabin" pattern, made as a baby gift for no good reason (which is the best reason) |
Sometimes, I’m struck with an idea. Who knows why? But I
have to make it, like, right now. If the yarn shop is closed, or I can’t drive
out to the fabric store, I’ll pore restlessly over my stash, desperate to find
the right colors or textures. Out comes the graph paper, the ruler, dozens of
colored pencils picked over and discarded until just the right shades are
found. I’ll add, multiply, divide (inexpertly), sketch, cut, crumple,
experiment until – at last! –a pattern comes out, a quilt-top drafted, a
neckline perfected, or a swatch knitted up and ready to dive in. What prompted
it? Maybe, this time, a baby was born whose name means House of God, and I NEED
to make a Log Cabin quilt. Perhaps a little girl I know finally has a baby
sister, and if they don’t get handmade matching dresses, the whole world will
be thrown out of balance.
Other times, it’s no matter how much I want to come out with
something brilliant, or even Nice. My sister, my dearest friend, at once my
kindred spirit and my polar opposite (but more kindred than pole), had a baby
girl, and asked me to be the Godmother. Highly sensible of the honor, I
declared “I shall make her a blanket.” Well, that was three years ago, and
there is no blanket. In fact, I just had the perfect idea for it today, after
trying out and discarding half a dozen ideas. (She has since also had a son,
and HIS baby quilt is in the works, because… well, because I was inspired.)
It’s not fair, it’s irritating, and it makes me feel bad
when inspiration fails. On the flip side, dear Bob, that Log Cabin quilt I made
opened the door to a friendship that was basic at the time, but has since
flowered into something I would sorely miss now. When the inspired things do
pop out, they are Just The Thing. All we really have to do in this life is the
job that’s in front of us. I don’t know why this job plunks itself in my lap
and not that one, but this is the sweater I have to knit, this is the nose I
have to wipe, this is the lunch date I have to make (this is the midnight blog
post I have to write). It feels right to go with it.
And this is why I’ll never be a business owner. And why I
wouldn’t have it any other way.
You know, Pig is frequently irritated by academia where you HAVE to publish articles to be someone... So people print garbage just to be saying something. Wait until you have something to say... And then say it with a log cabin quilt- or a costume- or a wedding gown.
ReplyDeleteAmen! And be happy about those times when you actually find the right thing to "say" (such as when a wedding gown or a baby blanket are needed).
ReplyDeleteIsn't creativity just that way? That was me just two months ago needing to go buy a sketchpad and brand new drawing pencils and watercolors...because I had a picture in my mind I HAD to set to paper. It's sort of cool though when those things happen.
ReplyDeleteI LOVE THE QUILT!